.:it's been awhile:.

i hate that so many of my posts start with “it’s been awhile…”. i always have the intention of writing more frequent… i wish i could stay true to that intention.

life is amazing. all is well… everyone is healthy. as i don’t take any of that remotely lightly- i’d like to move on and talk about something else.

how or when do you know when it’s time to move on? when is it right to take a leap of faith and change something you think needs to be changed? or to start a new adventure? for me: i try to pray, ask friends… ask family… ask dave over and over and over again. but then something happens that may or may not be the Powers trying to tell me something and i over-analyze the hell out of it and come to 87 conclusions as to what it could mean. my dad used to always say “i’m sick & tired of being sick & tired”. perhaps that’s a good time to move on… but what if you’re not sick & tired you’re anxious for another adventure or perhaps AN adventure, period. let’s take going back to school for instance… when is that ever ‘perfect’ or ‘ideal’ or ‘affordable’? i know that it wasn’t perfect, ideal or affordable when I was 18 and graduating high school… and it’s certainly no more perfect, ideal or affordable now. but at one point do you just do it.

i’m still working on figuring that out. i’ll keep you posted. after awhile, of course.

xokb.

.:i think i might cry:.

i’m frustrated beyond words. i’m not sure what to do. i feel sick to my stomach… and i want to cry.

my car was broken into two weeks ago & my purse was stolen. it was my mistake leaving my {new} purse in my car- and i accept that. it was a rough first couple of days, however everything seemed to be working their way back to normal fairly seamlessly… until Chase decided that dave and i were the ones being fraudulent and they were going to ‘terminate their relationship’ with each of us. this has created a whole slough of problems that just keep getting worse. dave and i have both got completely different stories from everyone we talk to. we call the customer service line and we get forwarded to about one million different departments only to end up at the fraud dept where they obviously hate their jobs. they are rude, unhelpful, spiteful and hurtful. seriously- i’ve never experienced anything like this. i’m blown away at how they have treated both dave and i. appalled, actually. i don’t really want to go day-by-day to rehash all the gory details of the ups and downs, but please trust me that this has been the worst experience of my life. they have now caused me MUCH more heartache, disappointment & frustration than the gentleman who stole my purse in the first place.

what now? how do I resolve this? who do I complain to? is it even worth it? i’m at a total loss… and totally bummed.


kb

.:lift it up:.

i’ve struggled for much of my life figuring out what i believe and what i don’t. what religion (if any) i want to be associate with. the one thing that has always been a constant throughout my journey of belief-dom is the idea of ‘lifting it up’. the idea of lifting my worries, problems, cares and stresses up to a higher power (whomever or whatever that might be) has always made sense. the idea of a higher power is absolutely something i believe in with all my soul. understanding that we cannot go at life alone has allowed me to lift my stresses up as high as i can and know that someone will help me.

i’m working on lifting it up today. lifting it all up.

xokb

.:sorry:.

yipes it’s been too long since i’ve written. a lot has sure changed since i wrote last.

1. girls are older (well, so are dave and i- but bygones).
2. we moved! we moved into a beautiful house in algona. it’s on a street full of slow moving cars and children at play.
3. i started a new position at work! i am now in design. i work on a line called REPORT Signature. it’s super fancy.
4. WE’RE ENGAGED! hoooooray. dave popped the question on our last annual gamily vaca to priest lake, idaho. he popped the question on august 17th. we are starting to wedding plan and we’re hoping to throw the wedding on august 4th, 2012. that also happens to be dave’s late father’s birthday. it’s been a very special day… but now will hopefully be an extra special day.

really and truly all is going amazingly well. we’re still having fun decorating and changing this around at the new place. dave has quite a few projects started and in the works (dog house, doll house…). oh- that reminds me- olive is doing good too! she has just about mastered the art of taking a bath! i might even go out on a limb and say she enjoys it a bit.

well now that you’re all caught up- i’ll keep ya caught up.

live long and prosper.
k. stb. hope.