.:i think i might cry:.

i’m frustrated beyond words. i’m not sure what to do. i feel sick to my stomach… and i want to cry.

my car was broken into two weeks ago & my purse was stolen. it was my mistake leaving my {new} purse in my car- and i accept that. it was a rough first couple of days, however everything seemed to be working their way back to normal fairly seamlessly… until Chase decided that dave and i were the ones being fraudulent and they were going to ‘terminate their relationship’ with each of us. this has created a whole slough of problems that just keep getting worse. dave and i have both got completely different stories from everyone we talk to. we call the customer service line and we get forwarded to about one million different departments only to end up at the fraud dept where they obviously hate their jobs. they are rude, unhelpful, spiteful and hurtful. seriously- i’ve never experienced anything like this. i’m blown away at how they have treated both dave and i. appalled, actually. i don’t really want to go day-by-day to rehash all the gory details of the ups and downs, but please trust me that this has been the worst experience of my life. they have now caused me MUCH more heartache, disappointment & frustration than the gentleman who stole my purse in the first place.

what now? how do I resolve this? who do I complain to? is it even worth it? i’m at a total loss… and totally bummed.


kb

.:lift it up:.

i’ve struggled for much of my life figuring out what i believe and what i don’t. what religion (if any) i want to be associate with. the one thing that has always been a constant throughout my journey of belief-dom is the idea of ‘lifting it up’. the idea of lifting my worries, problems, cares and stresses up to a higher power (whomever or whatever that might be) has always made sense. the idea of a higher power is absolutely something i believe in with all my soul. understanding that we cannot go at life alone has allowed me to lift my stresses up as high as i can and know that someone will help me.

i’m working on lifting it up today. lifting it all up.

xokb

.:sorry:.

yipes it’s been too long since i’ve written. a lot has sure changed since i wrote last.

1. girls are older (well, so are dave and i- but bygones).
2. we moved! we moved into a beautiful house in algona. it’s on a street full of slow moving cars and children at play.
3. i started a new position at work! i am now in design. i work on a line called REPORT Signature. it’s super fancy.
4. WE’RE ENGAGED! hoooooray. dave popped the question on our last annual gamily vaca to priest lake, idaho. he popped the question on august 17th. we are starting to wedding plan and we’re hoping to throw the wedding on august 4th, 2012. that also happens to be dave’s late father’s birthday. it’s been a very special day… but now will hopefully be an extra special day.

really and truly all is going amazingly well. we’re still having fun decorating and changing this around at the new place. dave has quite a few projects started and in the works (dog house, doll house…). oh- that reminds me- olive is doing good too! she has just about mastered the art of taking a bath! i might even go out on a limb and say she enjoys it a bit.

well now that you’re all caught up- i’ll keep ya caught up.

live long and prosper.
k. stb. hope.

.:seriously happy june:.

i’m pretty sure there are great things out there for dave and i right now. dave’s employed… (and i’m employed- although that’s not NEW news, it’s a great blessing). our house is on the market (yes, again). but this time for real. we’ve been blessed to be able to look for a home that better suits all of our needs. a fresh start, hopefully more yard… perhaps more upgrades and projects as dave and i love to put our brand on where we live. we’re on cloud 98735407. (really, that IS a number of a cloud). we feel astonished.

stay tuned as there are guaranteed updates right around the corner.

our girls are doing wonderful. we’re doing wonderful. that’s about all i have to report right now.



the below picture is of what i found when i looked in my lunch bag yesterday. while dave's been unemployed he's been making my breakfast and lunch for me. he secretly asked the girls if they wanted to make anything to send in my lunch for the following day. below is what i received. precious love letters from my sweet little girls.

xokb <-- pretty much the happiest girl in the world.

.:two wonderful years:.

(this picture is from one of our very FIRST dates at the Ballard Locks.)

well, sunday is dave and my two year anniversary!

i took tomorrow off of work so that we could celebrate. we are going camping and i think we get to meet up with dave's cousins who live in richland! i'm *so* excited and i can't wait for this fabulous weekend to start!

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

kb :)

.:ah!:.

i love my life!


chloe snapped these pictures two weeks ago when dave and i were having a moment. i was tearing up because of how absolutely grateful i am for him and the girls. they're my magic.


happy holiday weekend. i love you all.

kb

.:time to blog:.

i’ve sat at work and typed out a few blogs over the past couple of weeks but they all end up being journal entries. maybe i’ll start another blog for that very reason.

well, let’s see. let’s start with the babies. lily’s baseball is plugging right along. her participation in this particular baseball league has been a transition for all of us. lil started the season off by crying, feeling left out and not wanting to participate. chloe and ella have had to push even their imaginations to the next level to find things to do while we sit at sister’s baseball for oh, maybe 5 hours. dave and i didn’t agree with lily’s participation from the beginning. it’s a select league that plays more hours in a week than hours of school. the battle of extracurricular activities is one that we lost in the divorce war. not that we don’t want the girls to participate- we just wanted the activities to be agreed upon by both parents and be age appropriate. fast forward to now- lily is enjoying baseball, chloe and ella collectively have about 98765435756487 imaginary friends and games that they play at baseball practices and games. and dave and i support lily in baseball.

chloe is trying out to participate in the elementary school’s talent show tonight. she is going to sing a song from annie. i’ll talk to dave about recording the show so everyone can see it. i think she’ll do absolutely great.

ella is rad. she’s learning and growing leaps and bounds. there has been a sudden push to have her get ready for kindergarten in the past couple months in her mother’s home, as she’ll need to be accepted as an early enrollment with a birthday in october. i’m glad that ella is getting the attention, guidance and lessons that she needs and deserves. i am sad that it’s taken this long for that house to realize that teaching, molding and helping is all a part of life. nevertheless, she’s proud of herself (which is wonderful to see) and we’re so proud of her as well.

dave is doing great. he has put his physical health and fitness to the top of his priority list and i am remarkably proud of him. he’s looking and feeling great. he’s doing projects around the house and outside. our yard has never looked so good! i hope to be pouring a cement slab in the next couple of months for a little patio type thing. i’m very excited about that! with dave’s help it should be amazing.

i started a second job at the beginning of april. it proved to be a bit much for me. i’ve done the hold-down-two-jobs-and-go-to-school-thing before… but this time with a man in my life and children at home- it’s been a bit different. plus my day job is a bit monotonous for me right now and so i’m needing to put in extra effort to make it through the days. i’ve spoken with my boss at the spa to see if i can cut down my hours. we’re still in the process of figuring it out. i’ll keep you posted.

i had a wonderful mother’s day celebrating with my mom and having special treats from my girls a couple days before. they hold such a wonderful place in my heart.

(oldie but goodie- can't wait for this time of year again)
i adore my life.

kb