so i’ve tried to keep the blogs i write away from a sort of diary entry… and more so like an update or a newsflash, however today i’m feeling the need to just talk it out. bear with me as my diary entries tend to be scattered and often broken as my mind jumps from here to way over there.
we had a meeting this morning at work with our 401k account representative on the overall status of the markets and our money. i find myself terribly overwhelmed with the task of keeping myself and now dave and the girls financially afloat on a day to day basis without having to think about saving for my retirement years now.
this meeting was coupled with a time in my life where i am feeling like life flies by in the blink of an eye… maybe some of you reading are thinking to yourselves “ha! she’s only 24!”- well i’m feeling it, folks.
too much time goes by between visits with loved ones far and near… but there just isn’t enough time or gas money in one day. there also isn’t enough time to have sufficient quiet, down, and alone time while wanting to complete all the other visits, adventures and tasks necessary and desired in life.
how do i find this balance? listen to my core? take alone time when i need it and visit family when available?
let me pause for just a minute… i am absolutely NOT complaining about my life. i am absolutely ecstatic to be alive and to be where i am. i believe i am just learning about how to have a real relationship with a real man, how to be a caregiver/nurturer/confidant/role model/provider (amongst other things) to my precious princesses, how to own and care for a home while still doing my best to meet the needs and desires of both schaeperkoetter and hope families.
sometimes it really doesn’t feel like there is enough time for everything… and so much which we want to complete. schooling, career growth, financial security, vacations, a new home, a bigger car… aye ye ye!
sometimes it really doesn’t feel like there is enough time for everything… and so much which we want to complete. schooling, career growth, financial security, vacations, a new home, a bigger car… aye ye ye!
this really was intended to be a positive post! i am happy! i want to do so many things for my family and your family- i’m just finding the time for it all.
…maybe i’ll stick to updates and newsflashes.
Kristi Bisti,
ReplyDeleteYou have sooo much influenced our lives. I cannot thank you enough for the strength of character that you have brought into our family.
Consider the following story by a good man named Thomas S. Monson:
Some years ago there passed from mortality a friend who helped more people, spoke more eulogies, and gave more freely of his time, his talents, and his possessions than most. His name was Louis. He related to me this tender account:
A gentle, soft-spoken mother had passed away. She left to her stalwart sons and lovely daughters no fortune of finance but, rather, a heritage of wealth in example, in sacrifice, in obedience. After the funeral eulogies had been spoken and the sad trek to the cemetery had been made, the grown family sorted through the meager possessions the mother had left. Louis discovered a note and also a key. The note instructed: “In the corner bedroom, in the bottom drawer of my dresser, is a tiny box. It contains the treasure of my heart. This key will open the box.” Another son asked, “What could Mother have of sufficient value to be placed under lock and key?” A sister commented, “Dad has been gone all these years, and Mother has had precious little of this world’s goods.”
The box was removed from its resting place in the dresser drawer and opened carefully with the aid of the key. What did it contain? No money, no deed, no precious rings or valuable jewels. Louis took from the box a faded photograph of his father. On the back of the photograph was the penned message, “My dear husband and I were sealed together for time and all eternity in the House of the Lord, at Salt Lake City, December 12, 1891.”
Next there emerged an individual photo of each child, with his or her name and birth date. Finally, Louis held to the light a homemade valentine. In crude, childlike penmanship, which he recognized as his own, Louis read the words he had written 60 years before: “Dear Mother, I love you.”
Hearts were tender, voices soft, and eyes moist. Mother’s treasure was her eternal family. Its strength rested on the bedrock foundation of “I love you.”
A poet wrote, “Love is the most noble attribute of the human soul.”
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Kristi, love is the most precious gift that you have shared with us. Your countenance radiates love. Thank you for coming into our lives.
Brent
Kristi! (this is jessica, brent's daughter) You are such a wonderful person. Everytime I read your blog its always filled with positive and uplifting things! Even if you are stressed out and trying to get through adversity you remember the good things and the happiness in life. Thank you for your good example. I really enjoy your blog!
ReplyDeleteJessica Hatch :)
Kristi,
ReplyDeleteTake a deep breath. It all comes together.
You are an amazing women, whom I am proud to call friend and daughter.
I love you.
Mom xo
KRISTI! You are one of the prettiest women i know. I agree with jessica that you do seem to be very optimistic even threw stressful times in life. I admire that strength because it is some thing i lack at times. Im glad you are apart of my family too!
ReplyDeleteKristi, I know we never see each other (seriously, just a cup of coffee!), and I only just found your blog, but...I have so much I want to say to you. You have NEVER been one to complain about anything--sure, there is frustration, but what I admire about you most is your positive spirit, and your unboundless ability to love despite all circumstances. I have so much to learn from your example. Dave is lucky to have you, the girls are lucky to have you...everyone who knows you is lucky to have you (it's why you are so busy all the time--everyone needs some time with you!). You truly are a blessing!
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